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"Never thought I'd be on a boat"

Mon Mar 16, 2009, 10:21 PM
Well I had one hell of an exicting week last week, running from professors, meeting the dean, and crying like a baby over a good man losing his job ten years ago to a lazy asshole who screwed me over academically and I guess mentally now too. I blame PMS.

Am I that uniquely hideous that the guy could recognize me from twenty feet away through a sheet of tinted glass on a very rare day where I had my hair in a high ponytail AND a headband??? Both of which are things I only do to my hair on a blue moon? And have never done together in the entire 3.5 years I've been here?
It sucks being an ugly weirdo.
Well, maybe just weirdo.
Wait, if you're weird, are you automatically ugly?
That's what I believed from 7th grade until two years ago, when I realized that maybe I was wrong.

The building I had class in at the time has nasty little bathrooms and the building next door has nice roomy ones with windows. Unfortunately next-door building is chem-e building. Oh great escape, you were not so great at all.

I think I'm kind of happy I was caught. It was kind of a game I'd play every couple of weeks or so, peeling off cork and knowing that they would be too proud to let the scar tissue mar the facade and move the paper over it. The new bulletin board is being paid for by me, and I insist this board be dedicated to the legacy of the guy who was fired, a legacy cut tragically short by the evils of short-sighted publish-or-perish dictate. I'll have to hammer that out with maintenance I guess. Dandy Randy better not cry about it, I'm basically buying the replacement for him.

I think I'm getting depressed again as a holdover from midterm stress, "getting caught", and allergy time. Oh, adorable former chem-e classmate saying hi to me last week walking around campus only made things worse. I swear I'm really fourteen. Confession: he's the only person I ever had a crush on who seems to feel mutually so about me. The key word, though, is seems. He's a handsome, intelligent, charismatic, outgoing, friendly person all-around and has a circle of friends of both sexes that could circumscribe the state of Pennsylvania. At best, I have maybe looks down out of all of those. Every time I see him I want to fall over, and then I begrudgingly tell myself that he's just being overly charismatic and/or outgoing.

I don't know if he knows I'm not in chem-e anymore. I don't know if he knows that of all the things I miss about chem-e, he's the one I miss most.

Oh, last thing, I might have squeaked into a shot during the channel 10 4:00 news. They came on campus because of March Madness. Unfortunately I have no way of knowing if I made it. Probably didn't. Probably just as well.

  • Mood: Longing
  • Listening to: Spoon - "The Underdog"
  • Reading: August Wilson's "Two Trains Running"
  • Watching: "I'm On a Boat"
  • Playing: Peel the Cork Off The Board Without Getting Caught

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  • Current Residence: Hell, PA. It's right along the SEPTA R5
  • Interests: Me
  • Favourite movie: That's tough - maybe The Blues Brothers?
  • Favourite band or musician: Spoon, right now at least
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock - classic rock. I'll take emo and Broadway stuff too
  • Favourite artist: Mary Cassatt
  • Favourite poet or writer: Jack Kerouac
  • Favourite style of art: Impressionist
  • Operating System: I'm on Windows. Huzzah.
  • MP3 player of choice: Any one I can knit a sock for
  • Shell of choice: Conch, definately conch!
  • Wallpaper of choice: Floral - and I recovered my gorgeous sunflower wallpaper from my old pc!
  • Favourite game: The Sims
  • Favourite gaming platform: Game Boy. I have loved thee since I was three. And my mom wouldn't let me have one until much l
  • Favourite cartoon character: My Melody
  • Personal Quote: "Always keep your mouth shut". not that I always follow it.
  • Tools of the Trade: Pointy objects

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Thanks for the fav!

I like your style... nice and sketchy.
Keept it up! :)

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I love your drawings
I'm watching Bye Bye Greasy! I'm at the Walter song "if you were a car instead of a boy, you'd have headlights instead of eyes..."

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"Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self. Therefore trust the physician and drink his remedy in silence and understanding."
Thanks for the :+devwatch: !

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thanks for the fav *squeals* oh and i adore that pic of GIR you drew ^_^

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your a bigger fool than i ever imagined!
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your a bigger fool than i ever imagined!
WHA?
you're confused, allow me to explain
THanks for stopping by my page..i feel compelled to watch you :p I hope you dont mind :p

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Thanks for the Fav.

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legally, its questionable.
morally, its disgusting.
personally, i like it.
thank uu for the add!

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Nobody wants to be the last one there. Everyone wants to feel like someone cares, someone to love with my life in their hands, there's gotta be somebody for me out there.
hmm, i get the feeling somebody is or wants to be a fashion designer..nice work!

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Nobody wants to be the last one there. Everyone wants to feel like someone cares, someone to love with my life in their hands, there's gotta be somebody for me out there.
jen jen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *dies*

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wouldn't be the first time...

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